It started off pretty amazing: Class + impromptu fire drill, solid re-interview for a club, volunteering with some cool people, nap, dinner with friends, bible study, late night video games.
I went into that interview, surrounded by rows of nervous and worried freshmen all in business professional wear, thinking, wow, thank God. Thank God for the peace He's provided and the assurance that rules in my heart that I don't have to be incredibly frightened and panicked. This interview doesn't determine everything. It doesn't matter what I have on my resume, doesn't matter how this turns out. I've got God.
And it was a pretty solid interview. I thought I had it.
Exactly 10 hours after my interview finished, I got the, "we were unable to give you an offer" e-mail. And then I proceeded to mope and be bitter and frustrated and sad. I ate my mini tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream and reveled in my self-misery.
But I realized, how can I tell God that I trust Him and that I know He's greater and better and still feel and act so miserable after getting bad news? It's a bit hypocritical. It's very hypocritical.
I'm still feeling a bit disappointed, but maybe God was teaching me something. Or maybe there's just something better. Either way, if I'm going to say that I have confidence in Him, if I trust and know that I have my confidence in Him, I have to show that.
As always, a personal reminder:
"Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”Thank God for the blessings He's given us through Christ, and may we use that all "to the praise of His glory." [Ephesians 1]
James 4:13-15
THE END
09.12.2014
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