Sad.
Because I cannot even begin to tell you how miserable I feel right now.
update: Getting rejected from clubs is like getting waitlisted/rejected from colleges all over again. It's like, yeahh you tried. You were kinda close. But too bad.
update: Yesterday was a bad day.
This week has been an awful week. I've stayed up till 4 twice doing homework, been rejected from 2 clubs I really wanted to be in, probably gained like 2 lbs from all the stress eating, realized I'm going to run out of seaweed before I can restock, and yeah! #firstworldproblems
But just overviewing the past 3 weeks, I've discovered that college is definitely not everything I pictured it to be.
For one, I DEFINITELY thought I would have friends. At least a decent sized friend group that I could hang out with, eat with, chat with, you know. That I think was a little far-fetched to dream though, who knew making friends was so hard. And I can't believe I thought I would get that many too. LOL
My floor. I'll just leave it at that.
Asians. I've been having like an identity crisis being Asian American. Can't fit with the Asians, can't fit with the whites. And I'm not outgoing enough to put myself out into either.
Classes. I also thought I would do super well in my classes, but honestly it's kinda like high school. I still make stupid math mistakes and can't figure out little things and get lazy when doing readings and then screw up on reading checks (yes, we have those).
Fellowship&Church. I knew it would be difficult to find a fellowship/church, but when you're actually actively trying to find a good fellowship/church, it's quite stressful. And this kinda goes along with the Asian American thing; I thought there would be some group for Asian Americans.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE, the weather here has been GORGEOUS the past couple of days. highs in the 70s! It's kinda chilly at night, but everything is just prettier with a breeze and a soothing sun.
THE END.
09.13.2013
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