Thanksgiving

It's already been 2 weeks after Thanksgiving. Every year, I usually write myself a letter on all the things I am thankful for. But this year I don't feel very thankful. 

I was on Facebook a while back when I saw a post by someone who had been in a serious car accident. She came out safe, without serious injuries. But in her post she described the events of that day and everything she was thankful that happened or was 'coincidentally' in place so she wasn't seriously injured and had friends and family to help her after the fact. 

As Christians we are so thankful when really bad things don't happen. Like, thank God you're okay, or thank God nothing worse happened. But what about when it does?

I feel like there's so little to be thankful for after our dad's death.

He didn't have some accident that allowed the doctors to find the tumor coincidentally, and just in time for them to treat it. My mom didn't have a reason to suddenly come home and then happen to be there with us and my dad when he passed. My dad's health didn't deteriorate slowly enough to allow just one more day so we and my mom could come home. 

And then I guess is when everyone asks God, "why?"

Are we supposed to be thankful for his death? Are we supposed to be thankful for how it happened? 

I know the answers are supposed to be that everything happens for a reason, that I can be thankful for the life he lived, that he's no longer in pain, that he's with the Lord in paradise. 

But what about everything else? How am I supposed to feel about that?

12.08.21