post hiatus mind dump

Apologies for the hiatus, not that anyone reads me. But March was quite the whirlwind, and frustratingly occupying in terms of academic work. I'm a senior, why do I still try?? Question of everyday.

At some point, I'll get around to editing and backdating photos from the Smokies and Chicago from Spring Break. And my photos from California from Winter Break... Until then, I apologize for the heavy text.

The 30-day countdown has finally begun. Can you believe it?
I've asked that so many times already. But it's so hard to wrap my mind around it. IU also refuses to distribute caps and gowns until the week before graduation, so my internal benchmarks for graduating and leaving are off. But I've arranged graduation and moving-out plans, found a roommate in Houston, and booked my tickets for post-graduation travel. It's all getting real.

Am I excited?
Yes.
Am I nervous?
Very.

But to be honest I'm in a state of denial. I'm not quite sure what to think.
To think I won't have the fall colors, winter snow, and spring flowers I've had for the past four years.
To think that my friends will be here, or Chicago, or Dallas, while I'm in Houston.
That I'll be in Houston indefinitely, working 40 hours a week, every week.
I'll have a 1.5-2hr commute everyday.
I'll need to find a new church, join a new small group, share life and be vulnerable with a new group of people.
I'll be a young adult, a graduate, in a whole other stage of life.
I'm growing up.

Like, wow.
Is that not terrifying?

And how easy it might be to become complacent in work and in life. When class schedules aren't changing are you aren't running to different organization events or meetings every day.

I wonder how God will use me in Houston. I wonder how I can glorify Him.
I guess there's a peace in that too though, in seeking first the kingdom of God.

So when God desired to show more convincingly to the heirs of the promise the unchangeable character of his purpose, he guaranteed it with an oath, so that by two unchangeable things, in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled for refuge might have strong encouragement to hold fast to the hope set before us. We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul.
Hebrews 6: 17-19a

Rather train yourself for godliness; for while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come. The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance. For to this end we toil and strive, because we have our hope set on the living God, who is the Savior of all people, especially of those who believe.
1 Timothy 4:7-9

It is currently 2:43.

end rant.
senior day #237
04.11.17