WANTED: roommate.

Late night musings.

I need a roommate. I've pretty much told everyone and their mother that I need a roommate, but if you don't know it yet - here's your PSA. I need a roommate!!

I'm very needy when it comes to social interaction, and after a long day of formal, business communications, I want someone to talk genuinely to. And so the thought of potentially living alone for a year (and also paying studio rent and utilities), is terrifying to me.

It's been a while, a really long while, since I've been in a place of this anxiety. In this place of "wanting" and "needing" something of a sort of tangible nature. It's a bit different from emotional uncertainty or restlessness, which I have undoubtedly experienced even within the past couple months. In college, I needed to get an internship, or get a job, or get an apartment in Houston. And eventually I "got" all those things and I settled. I've been really comfortable after college.

But for me, this 'tangible' need, as opposed to an emotional need, is further out of my control.
I'm looking for a roommate (obviously), but I may not get one. I may not find someone who is willing to live with me, who has the same budget range, and who needs to live in the same area. There very well may not be someone out there. And then, what do I do?

And that's not to be dramatic,
I'm just saying that to illustrate how something as trivial as finding a roommate, (and everything else in life) is within God's control. I've forgotten that. I've forgotten what it feels like to rely on God for these requests, and to remember that I need to continue to praise and trust the Lord, even if I don't get what I want.

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:4-7

end rant.
04.25.18