letters: grad thoughts

Um, well, I guess I never mentioned that I finally graduated. Saturday, May 6th, 2017. Woot woot.

Graduation was ultimately a surreal feeling.
I thought I'd have the gratification of seeing Indiana one last time as I flew off, but I passed out after the plane left the gate. So much for sentimental endings.

Even a month after graduation I am ultimately still in a state of self-denial. In denial that I only have a month until I move to a new city and start a new chapter. In in denial that I won't be seeing my Indiana friends for a long time to come. How did four whole years of college pass so quickly?

I think the reality of growing up is that you never quite figure it out. Even after deciding your major, finding a group of friends, graduating, securing a job, finding a place to live. There always seems to be duck that's not in place. Society and politics are still a mess and everyone is fighting their own battles. Personal, family, relationship, friends, work.

You just grow to realize how broken the world really is.
But that's also the beautiful part, right? Learning how much in need of a Savior we are, learning how God is still able to work through us, even in our brokenness now. We have been called, we have been justified, and we have been glorified through Christ.  Romans 8:28-32

I guess I should be excited.

Everyone always asks if I'm excited.

It's a new start right? A new opportunity, a new everything. That's supposed to be exciting, right? I think I've been looking at it the wrong way though.

Of course it should be exciting. How might God use me in Houston? How might I be able to glorify Christ in my job, in a new community. How might I be able to serve God in a new church? That's supposed to be exciting! 

But instead I have been bogged down by the worries of the working life, the adulthood, the commuting. Where is my assurance in Christ? 

I pray that I might be looking to Christ in this time of transition. That I might seeking His guidance with all these new changes. That I might be excited for how He might use me in his kingdom. 

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Ephesians 2:8-9

end rant. 

06.10.17