almost there

It's December 13th.
Can you believe it's almost the end of 2016?
What a wonderful, crazy year it's been.

I apologize first off, for my lack of writing. I've been putting off finishing this post as well. Maybe my lack of drama or misery has left me little to whine about. Or there are just things better left to private journals. But to be honest, everything has gone by so quickly.
Quickly, passively, easily.
It's hard to believe how much has happened.

I'm thankful for the people I have in Indiana, for the weekend adventures, for the late-night-impromptu-joys. Wandering forests and eating Korean pancakes and ramen and whatever else our hearts desire. Life has been almost too easy.
Busy, yes.
Complicated, still.
But nothing short of wonderful. And I've gotten quite complacent.

I just finished my second to last semester of college! This is going to be my last ever winter break! And then my last semester of school, ever!!
Okay, I can't think too far. My anxiety builds up too quickly.

But what should my response be?
I often forget that I have a job waiting for me at the other end of graduation. And I occasionally find myself still worrying about grades, about finishing work, about professors, everything you can think of. But what should I be thinking about instead? What should I be worrying about instead?

This past Sunday our sermon was about how we're to surrender our circumstances and emotions to Christ. Basically, our worship, relationship, and trust in the Lord cannot be dependent on what's happening or how we're feeling. So even in my 'lack' of suffering, I should have no less trust and dependence on the Lord. I should not be any less urgent in my desire to pursue Him.
There is still immense brokenness in this world. And we are still waiting for the day he returns. So here's me seeking to surrender it all to Christ. Not becoming complacent and not becoming wearied. There's much work to be done.

12.13.16
senior day #118