An Honest Confession

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD.

This is a trivial issue, I agree. But it's something I know most every business student will one day encounter, and something I've really struggled with.

Recruiting. [verb; the act of attending career fairs and information sessions, editing and submitting resumes, writing cover letters, applying for job/career positions, interviewing, and receiving rejections or offers. Typically occurs for college students in fall (Sept.-Nov.) and spring (Jan.-March) blocks. ]

This marks the third, yes third, post I've written about it.
I am that crazy.
But the past 2 months has been a recruiting whirlwind..and not receiving offers. Not one.

See, God has given me so many reasons not to be worried.
I've seen Him work and bless me from the day I applied to college. And look at His promises:

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:33-34

He could go on forever.

But even with all His reassurances, I'm honestly terrified because I don't have an internship set for next summer, because all my fellow classmates have secured theirs, and because I will be abroad next semester unable to recruit on campus. I'm really worried.
 
In my well ranked business school with my high performing peers, it's easy to feel down about what others have achieved, and what I have not.

And for every underclassmen business student who might one day find their selves in my position, I'm here to to tell you that not everything turns out the way you want it to. I worked my ass off for this recruiting season. I worked, I joined clubs, I took leadership roles, I got a fantastic GPA. But I don't have any offers. I don't know how else I could have prepared, but I still came up short.

And if you end up in my position...you won't know if everything is going to work out. You will feel worried, you will feel helpless, and you won't think God's promises are sufficient.
Trusting God is hard. It's really hard.
And God doesn't usually work things out the way you want it to.

I'm here to say you're not alone. It's okay to feel down. I feel down.
But it's also important to remember God still has great promises for us. And in all honesty, His promises don't guarantee a comfortable life in this lifetime. He never promised us junior year internships and 60k postgrad salaries or job stability. His promises are for eternity, for His kingdom come.

“Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name.
Your kingdom come,
your will be done,
    on earth as it is in heaven. Matthew 6:9-10

Layup your treasures in heaven. So be assured, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. Seek His Kingdom! Because we don't seek our own glory. The world is broken, and life was never meant to be perfect. But we can hope in something greater and something good.

the end.
11.21.2015