Hey

Steph.

Everyone here calls me Steph.
For the most part, I'm okay with it. Most people at home have always called me Steph. Coming from most people here, it's comforting, reassuring. Every now and then I'll feel a bit awkward.

Like how sometimes my co-workers and managers call me Steph.

I feel bad, that I don't really let anyone in Indiana call me anything but Stephanie. I always felt the 'nickname' was reserved for those closest and most familiar with me, but I've never really let the people at school get close to me. Making everyone call me 'Stephanie' further reinforced that distance I kept from people. I wanted the distance, my physical and emotional bubble, but to be honest it's not great for long term relationships with others.

What did I say freshman year? Making friends is hard.
Asking God to help me lower walls.

07.10.15