single.

He got the girl.

It's not my secret to share, but considering close to no one reads this blog, I think I'm pretty safe. And too excited not to share with anyone else.

But single doesn't hit you until the 3 closest people to you are all in relationships. Single doesn't hit you till you realize you're 2 years out from graduating from college and have yet to be asked on a date. Single doesn't hit you till you realize there's really no one you're close enough to in life that you'd consider dating.

I still wonder what it's like to be in love. Sure, I've loved. And I'm thankful for all the amazing people God has placed in my life for me to love. But what's it like? Knowing that there's someone else on the earth who just, really understands you? Cares about you? Would do anything for you?

I wrote a post a couple years ago about being single. About being comfortable and joyful in the fact that I was by myself, that I could develop myself in my faith and trust and love in God. And I'm so thankful, and so grateful. For all the growth I've had and the unchanging, unfailing, unconditional nature of God and his love. My God, you are so good to me. And there is so much you have done to work in my heart. Don't ever let me forget that.

God's love is enough for me. I've felt it, I know it.
But, sometimes it still gets lonely.

the end.
05.24.2015