sophomore day #247

DID YOU KNOW?

I have only 25 more days on campus as a sophomore.
It's frightening to think of not only how fast the past two semesters have come and gone, but of how fast the next 4 might pass, and how close we are to adulthood. Or at least, adults as society expects us to be once we graduate from college.

Adults that should have jobs, and their own apartments. Adults who pay all of their own bills, set up their doctors appointments, and pay for things like insurance and gas. Adults who have to cook for themselves and clean their own homes and do their own laundry.

I used to think it was crazy that Peter Pan never wanted to grow up. But then the closer I got to it, the scarier growing up became, and the less I wanted it.
Why do people want to grow up?

My roommates turning 20 this week. I turn 20 in seventy-three days.

The funny thing about growing up, is that you never really notice it.
You don't notice till you look back and say, "Oh, what a child I was then. How foolish and silly I was. How stupid, naive."
You don't notice till you find yourself giving advice and 'wisdom' to people on things you experienced.

You don't notice till you see the little babies you once saw crawling around in church turn into middle schoolers, high schoolers. And then you think to yourself, wait.
When did that happen?

In the fall, the class of 2019 will be arriving on campus. It'll have been 3 years since I first visited Indiana, 2 years since I attended orientation, and started as a freshman.
In 2 years I'll be graduating, moving somewhere else, 

I don't want to grow up.
I don't want the future.

Where's the pause button in all of this? It's all playing out faster than I expected.

the end.
04.12.2015