freshman day #118

finals week

is just delightful. Actually it's not too awful considering I only have two finals (yay for winning the case competition + having a good enough grade in class that I don't have to take the optional final). So I can't complain really.

I've taken 6 practice accounting exams and I've started review for my finite mathematics exam on Friday. But I really need to get the ball rolling for finite!!

Last Thursday night was our Navs Christmas party. I'm very sorry to say I do not have any pictures, although I ran around taking pictures with another girl's camera but she has not uploaded them yet :(

It was so fun. We didn't do much other than play telephone charades (ROFL) but it was so great just to be able to laugh and have such a great time. It felt like home.

We also had a 'girls night' Saturday where we all hung out in one of the sophomore girl's dorm rooms and ate cookies and chocolate and chatted while playing the 'Happy Sunshine Game.' Yes, the 'Happy Sunshine Game.' Basically someone is in the 'hotseat' and then everyone goes around and says something that they like/enjoy about that person. (Apparently they also do this at everyone's birthdays...) It was very touchy feely. It was a bit weird. BUT, it was an interesting experience.

But during and afterwards I realized how little I really knew about all the girls and how 'disconnected' I really was from them. They all basically share the same personality type; well at least all of them have 'F's in their four letter sequences.

And I know why I connect so much better with guys than with girls. You don't have to share your life story to be a guy's good friend. I mean you can, but usually when you've shared your emotions and feelings and deep dark secrets you've stepped over the friend zone line and I don't ever cross that. With girls, sharing secrets, feelings, it's supposed to be all natural.

You don't have to let any walls down to be friends with guys. You have to let some down to be close with a girlfriend. Because everyone else has let their walls down and when you don't, welp, have fun in your little trench by yourself. But I've built up most my walls so high that the only person that can really look in is God. And to be honest, I prefer it that way. Yet I'm discovering that everyone in Navs has their walls down and until I'm willing to do that...

Pray for me. That's all I can really say.

On a side note, the snow has melted and it all looks kinda ugly now, haha. Although I quite enjoy chipping at frozen ice sheets on the sidewalk late at night when everything refreezes.

THE END
12.16.2013